As we head into week 17 of public health measures to protect ourselves, others and our health care system during the COVID-19 pandemic, there’s hope for a shift into stage 3, being reunited with loved ones, and looking forward—with both trepidation and excitement—to what the world will be like when we come out of this.
Right now, many of us are also dealing with a prolonged heat wave and dry spell—and, if like me, you don’t have a yard, balcony or air conditioning, it can be particularly oppressive. And my fridge is now on the fritz; luckily, the apartment next to me is vacant, so my super gave me the keys and I’m using that fridge. Building management has been notified, and now I wait to see if it will be repaired or replaced; it’s an older second-hand model, so it will likely be replaced. And I’m grateful that I was able to salvage the contents of my fridge (freezer is still working, thankfully).
With all the recent upheaval and so many things out of our control, it can be hard to stay positive and keep the faith, as it were. And if you struggle with anxiety and depression (I do), times like these can make you feel even more fragile than usual. I’ve been feeling particularly vulnerable this weekend, as I write this post. I’m extra gentle with myself at times like this; I tell myself it will pass. And I remind myself that I have a lot to be grateful for.
Here is my gratitude list:
A cozy, comfortable, safe home
Access to safe, clean water and good, healthy food
Access to cellphone, Internet and cable TV
Access to amenities within a 10 to 20-minute walk from my home
Some work coming in
I’m well, as are my family, chosen family and friends
I have supportive family, chosen family and friends—so I’m in solitude, but not alone
We have a great combined, cooperative federal, provincial and municipal effort on COVID-19 and its impacts
Time for art projects, reading, reflection, playing Scrabble against myself, doing online word search puzzles
My beautiful, playful four-legged friend Camille (cat) to keep me company
Ability to take daily walks, with pedometer to count my steps
Access to stories on Netflix, TV, movie collection, books, Internet, social media, online performances
Being able to see beauty and kindness in the world during these uncertain, heartbreaking times
A neighbour and I helping each other out with groceries, errands, laundry change
It’s a good, insightful exercise: reflections on gratitude. Give it a try and see for yourself.